Gods of the Matrix

What are Gods? The Gods of ancient Greece or the Avatars of ancient India. They’re beings somehow not of this world, yet in this world. Having great power to wield over it, yet not omniscient nor omnipotent.

I wanna have a bit of fun with this idea. I’ve been watching the anime Sword Art Online where a bunch of people get stuck in an MMORPG. That made me think about the nature of the holographic (un)reality we inhabit.

Back to the Gods. What if the Gods weren’t simply myth, aliens nor Annunaki. If this world is like computer simulation, a computer game. We are simply characters in that game living according to our programming. The Gods then would be something external from the matrix. They’re not part of it, but they can log into it. They can play with. They can possibly even reprogram parts of it. Maybe the Gods or someone else created the matrix, they wrote the basic rules of how it functions. It can go on by itself. The seasons change, people do their daily activities. The Gods can alter certain local scripts in the matrix, such as maybe one morning the sun doesn’t rise, or they make one man immortal or allow him to walk on water. Things that are impossible according to normal laws of the matrix, but not for the Gods. Maybe a certain God followed the life of an individual in the matrix, found them interesting and granted boons. Or they didn’t like someone and made their life miserable. Sort of like when you’re playing Sims, except more interesting.

Perhaps there were Gods here a few millennia ago, but there aren’t any since they got bored with their toy or some other reason. Then again the simulation is still going on. They didn’t shut it off. Maybe there are a few Gods around, but they are more subtle.

The Gods could just be kids playing video games. In their eyes their malevolence or benevolence doesn’t matter, as they see us as characters in a game. When I play computer games I usually don’t care about the feelings of random NPCs. It may be somewhat as the Q and The Squire of Gothos on Star Trek.

The next question would then be who created the matrix and why. And what of significance are our thoughts and emotions as computer programs?


What am I supposed to do?

What should I do to be useful? How can I benefit mankind, mass-awakening, liberation from the oligarchs? Should I be more vocal about me beliefs? It’s far too obvious that the world is heading toward a global fascist state. Should I try to inform people about that? Is there a point? If they haven’t figured out that themselves what can I do to make them understand? Every now and then I post stuff on Facebook relating to the conspiracy or spiritually enlightening stuff. I try to keep it to stuff that even Joe Public understands. Something they can relate to. Some people notice them, but I doubt it has much actual effect. I should probably do more when I talk to people in real life. How do I do that then?

I don’t want evangelize. I don’t want to sound like an asshole who thinks he knows better than everyone else, or an advertiser who tries to make them buy his shit. If I talk to people and try to make them accept new information or discard old beliefs it has to be natural. A conversation. The problem is how do I get into such a conversation? Most people seem only interested in superficial entertainment and popular stuff. Can I break through that barrier of pointless airheadedness? Still, they don’t seem like soulless automatons, they’re simply not used to intellectually facing many of the contradictions inherent in our society.

If I talk to people I should stick to what I know. Not repeat something like a repeater because I’ve heard it repeated many times. While I can say I believe the Illuminati exists I cannot say I know it does. So I shouldn’t initiate a conversation about how the Illuminati has controlled us for millennia, since I am not quite sure how it has happened, or if it has happened at all. Rather I do know that there have “always” been all sorts of aristocrats and elites that have controlled the masses. I can try to highlight that it is still happening now regardless of the propaganda about democracy and equality, and that we don’t have to sit idly by as it happens.

How can I get people interested in their own lives? I don’t think many are. They’ve been taught that the cool people are on TV. Their romances are more interesting than your own. They discoveries of ivy league scientists are more significant than anything you might do. It’s still the deal of we don’t do anything ourselves.

I’m not quite sure what I want either, or what I should do with myself? I want a girlfriend, but then again I’m skeptical will I find someone who’d I find attractive physically, intellectually and spiritually, and she’d feel the same way about me. On an ideological level I want a girlfriend, but have a lot of doubts. Should I spend lot of time on some sort of supposedly spiritual activity like meditation? I haven’t meditated in a long time. I’m not that good at it. Should I focus intently on my Korean studies? It might help me with a lot of things too? Should I delve deeper into conspiracy stuff? Lately I’ve felt sort of detached from it. I don’t mean “going back to sleep”, but that there are all of these rabbit holes you have go down to understand better like Max Igan says, and I simply haven’t seem much point in it.

At least I’m glad 2012 is almost over. For all the hype about the end of the world/awakening it’s been a fairly boring year. I didn’t except anything to happen on December 21st, yet I was sort of hoping it would. Now that red herring is gone, maybe it’d be easier to focus on something real, concrete. I hope I can do something concrete in 2013.

In Defense of Collectivism

I mentioned earlier that humans are a collective of individuals, so there shouldn’t be a conflict between collectivism and individualism. Lets look at Collectivism a bit more. The almighty Wikipedia says:

“Collectivism is any philosophic, political, religious, economic, or social outlook that emphasizes the interdependence of every human being. Collectivism is a basic cultural element that exists as the reverse of individualism in human nature (in the same way high context culture exists as the reverse of low context culture), and stresses the priority of group goals over individual goals and the importance of cohesion within social groups (such as an “in-group”, in what specific context it is defined). Collectivists usually focus on community, society, or nation. It is used and has been used as an element in many different and diverse types of government and political, economic and educational philosophies throughout history and most human societies, in practice, contain elements of both individualism and collectivism.”

It doesn’t sound so bad, and it shouldn’t. Concepts such a communism and fascism have been called collectivist. I’d add most organized religions to that lot also. Yet I’m not sure if any of those are really collectivist, if we take collectivism to be an idea where the a group of people are regarded as a single entity. The goals of the entity are the goals of the people. Something all participants strive for equally, although possibly for different reasons and in different ways. Communism, fascism, totalitarianism, Christianity are not the goals of the whole group, rather by a small subgroup of manipulators. Perhaps on an idealistic level those ideologies might be collectivist, but not on a practical level. Communist countries always had a elite to rule over the masses, so did fascist countries and churches, especially the Catholic church.

I claim that those aren’t collectivist even though the whole collective shares the same goal, the goal is not one of the collective, but of the small subgroup which fools others to think the goal is theirs as well. For a group can have a goal, a group of people can become one entity, albeit an ephemeral one. Nor am I sure how big a group can become a harmonious entity where all the participants are truly willing, and not coerced or cajoled into it. A nation, or even a town might be too big, but a group of friends can certainly be an entity.

When I go out with a good group of friends the needs of the individual don’t matter as much, yet the individual is not suppressed or oppressed. Other priorities simply become more important than the desires of the individual. It doesn’t matter if we go to the restaurant I prefer, if everyone else wants to go to another place as long as I don’t hate the place. It doesn’t matter whether we play the game I want, if we do something which ends up being enjoyable. The role of the ego dissipates in a good circle of friends. Each individual instinctually knows how to bend enough to benefit the group without harming himself. However, if there is one guy who doesn’t fit in, he can ruin all of it by his mere presence. I imagine some rock bands, for example, are like this when writing songs. People present ideas, the ones that work are refined, others discarded, and it doesn’t matter who came up with what tune or which piece of writing. A collective can be powerful and beneficial.

The catch is that no-one can be part of a collective all the time. A collective is ephemeral. Everyone is an individual, and at some times you have to distance yourself from others to look at things from a different perspective. Being part of a group your senses often dullen, you’re not as sharp as usual. Softer. It makes you easy prey, easier to manipulate. That’s why you have to be able to switch from group mode to individual mode if the situation changes. Being in group mode all the time makes you dumb. Being in individual mode makes you jaded and agitated. Both are necessary.

Collectivism/ collectivist is sometimes used almost as a four letter word in the alternative media. I don’t agree that it has to be. It has been pointed out before by some guy who was a guest at Red Ice Creations (too lazy to dig up his name) that psychopaths are in a way the ultimate individual. They use the collective for their own benefit with little concern for others. The issue of collectivism vs individuality is not all that black and white.



What is the Illuminati?

Every conspiracy nuts believes in a big conspiracy organization, which many of us call Illuminati. Mostly due to repetition. I also call it the Illuminati for the lack of a better word, and I don’t want to be artificially “alternative” by coming up with a new name for an old thing. What is the Illuminati exactly? What do I know about it? How can I know about it?

While the Illuminati refers to the Bavarian Illuminati founded by Adam Weishapt a few centuries ago, and possibly is or is not of older origin does not really matter. The Illuminati is foremost a construct. An idea we have never seen, but use it to try to explain the social reality we see. Very few us have ever met anyone directly involved in the New World Order conspiracy or major manipulation of world events, yet reasonable assessment of recent history and world events often leads us to conclude that there is something like the Illuminati directing world affairs. Even though I generally don’t advocate belief in anything, much less in mere ideas you that you haven’t experienced yourself, it is almost inescapable not to the see the Illuminati if you look with an open mind. Even though you actually never see the Illuminati… Carlos Castaneda wrote: “Practice not-doing by looking at a tree or bush; fix your attention not on the leaves but on the shadows of the leaves.” The Illuminati might be invisible, but it still leaves a shadow.

When I look at the main stream view of society presented to me by main stream society and believed by the majority of the people, it simply doesn’t make sense. It is an equation with a few variables missing. 1+3+x=7. Most people cannot fathom what the X could be so they see society as being 1+3=7, which leads them to have a very skewed sense of reality by forcing reason onto something that is not reasonable. Us conspiracy nuts see the X but all of us have different ideas of what it actually is. Illuminati, Zionists, banksters, reptilians, aliens, the Vatican… Most us don’t know what the X is, but at least we recognize it’s there.

Society as it is simply makes no sense. I shudder to think we could have to this stage by natural development or by accident. The social construct we live in is far too complicated and insanely evil not to have been partially manufactured with intent. Look at the politics. Every few years we have some lying scumbags do twirl for us on a stage and we pretend that is freedom of choice, or control over our own lives. If we have freedom why do choose to give corporations more rights than living human beings? Why do we believe we need money to do anything? Why do we believe we need a job to live? Why do we trust governments to do our thinking for us? Look at all the crap we do to forget how fucked up everything is? Drugs, reality TV, plastic surgery, video games, Facebook fandom and countless other things I prefer not to think about. If we’re free why do we have all that crap to distract us, and why do we fall for it? How about all the wars going on in the world right now in the name of democracy or progress, or the wars that were going on decades or centuries ago due to different excuses?

The way I see it the Truth, whatever it may be, truth about life itself, about various small issues that we tackle about like 9/11, cure for cancer or happiness, the Truth is hidden in a dark cave somehow. The Illuminati does not want us to see it, because it wants to control us. If  we had the truth there would be no way it could do that. That is why it shines it’s light of distraction to lure us away from an obscure cave. For most it works just like that. There’s fun and games to be had, why would you want to go to a musty old cave? The few who see it is a distraction start heading for the cave, that is why the Illuminati has it’s armies, threats and ridicule to scare you away, or just kill you.

Even though I cannot see the Illuminati itself I can see the myriad deliberate lies our civilization is founded on. When you put it all together you’ll see fragments of the Illuminati. People are good at fooling themselves to believe all sorts of stupid crap in order not to jeopardize their belief systems. Yet that is not a sufficient explanation for the state of affairs we are in.

What do I think the Illuminati is then? A bunch of guys in dark suits, esoteric priests of an ancient secret society, reptilians, aliens, demons? Society seems so manufactured for at least a few centuries, so it cannot be a new thing. Not just the Neo-Cons or something like that. Going down that road into the ancient world, I’d say it has it’s roots back there somewhere. Although it may not be the same conspiracy that is in our world now as the one in the ancient world. Might be another group doing more or less the same thing. Who knows? But it doesn’t sound reasonable to me that it’s just a “human thing”. I’d say there are other forces at work. I cannot say their exact nature; ET, demonic or what, since I don’t know about them. I know some popular UFOlogy stuff, stories about demons and djinni and so forth, but what they actually are I cannot say. I’d just say there’s something there worth looking into. Humanity is a farm for something else.


I’ve never understood why it’s important to like popular things. For a lot of people the transient attribute of being popular is more important than the substance of the thing which is popular. It goes for music, movies, games, people, the latest gimmick and so forth. It doesn’t matter if the music is good or if the movie is interesting as long as it is popular a lot of people will like it. Why? One might think that since something is popular it would imply it is good and it has gotten its popularity due to being good, but that is not always the case. Sometimes, of course, it is applicable. Nowadays governments and corporations spend millions in advertising. They can make their Harry Potters and Twilights popular by building up the hype even before anyone has seen it. Other things can become popular by accident, a meme that is simple enough gets repeated by lots of people over time even though they don’t really care for it and voilá; the thing has become popular.

I can understand the part of wanting to be popular with other people to a degree. If I spend time with my friends I want some of their attention, I want the to respect me, consider me interesting, funny, witty or something. Especially the attention of women feels nice. Yet too much attention feels fake and uncomfortable. I wouldn’t want to be the center of attention for too long. Sometimes for a moment it can be nice, if there is a good reason for it, such as I’m making a presentation.

The thing is, I don’t understand why people like things simply because they are popular. What’s the point? A lot of people do that. A couple of times a girl has asked me rhetorically if I’m popular with girls, sort of hinting I might be (but I’m not). I just didn’t know why does it matter? I’m there with the girl, what does it matter what others think of me?

I sometimes want things that I consider good to be popular, whether it be my favourite games, music, ideas like Tao te Ching or David Icke. They might help enlighten the human race as a whole, instead of the corporate pop-culture and lack of philosophy in society. Yet that too seems like a pointless task, since if people are interested in it, they’ll find out about it, if not, I cannot make it popular.

We don’t do things ourself anymore

Our grandparents used to build their own houses, farm their land, grow their food, make their clothes. We don’t. We get it from a supermarket. We have little effect on the world or our lives. On top of that we don’t even experience things on our own. We do it through a proxy such as television or a computer game. Our romance is a Hollywood movie, which can be a perfect idea, but we can get rid of it when it no longer amuses us. Even if we have a girlfriend/wife we still fantasize about the Pussycats Dolls song “Don’t cha wish your girlfriend was hot like me?”. We don’t even fight our wars anymore, we play Call of Duty or Counterstrike. We don’t have adventures or excitement, except in watching Avatar (it actually never excited me, but apparently for a lot of people it did), reading Harry Potter (never read any of them), or playing World of Warcraft (guilty of having done that one). Our ideas and beliefs aren’t formed by ourselves either. They’re formed by the authority we believe in, be it the pope, the professor or the economist. We believe in Creationism because they tell us to, or in Evolution and Global Warming, or in Neo-Liberal capitalism.


All of this is by design, of course. As it is, it shouldn’t be too difficult to rid ourselves of the dependency once we realize it is an engineered one. First we have realize that state of affairs intellectually, then distance ourselves from it emotionally, after that we can begin to live genuinely, instead of being a nice little automaton slave for the system.